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When I saw some overwhelming news which reported that the stray dogs were tortured by the cruel human, I was shocked and could not believe what I saw. A stray dog was remained its tongue. Its mouth was cut by the gin trap. When the animal rescuing volunteers saw it, they said they never saw a dog was tortured like this. Its scar still had blood and now when it saw human approached, it was scared and run away immediately. And the other news was reported that a cruel man threw a stray dog from a building. And the dog had born some little dogs few hours ago. Of course the dog was injured and it could not walk anymore. However, it still tried hard to creep back to her children and fed them. Therefore, I was outraged when I saw those poor dogs. I could not understand why those cruel people had to harm those homeless dogs. We always said dogs were human’s best friends; however, we did not cherish them. Taiwanese’s concept toward concerning animal was not correct as the in the foreign countries. I usually saw those stray dogs were sent to the US or other countries to find their benevolence masters. Although I wanted to help them and be a volunteer, I had to many schoolwork to do and I had to be a tutor five times a week. In order to show that I am care about the animals, I will donate six hundreds dollar per months to the charity, which is tithable of my salaries. I hope that one day I will never heard those stray dogs are harmed, or those dogs are killed by the government in order to reduce their amount. Maybe in the future our law can curb this problem and let human understand we should not torture dogs just for fun.

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This year is nearly ended, and I am surprised that time goes so fast. Looking back of these years, I had experienced many sad and happy events. In the summer vacation, I went to America to visit my grandparents and I also went to Disney. It was really a great time that I had in my vacation. Then, I had a quarrel with my mom. I was so angry at that time that I almost did not want to see her anymore. And I had a idea that I did not need my parents’ support and became independent. However, it indicated that I still needed my parents’ help. Whenever I thought of I shout to my mom, I was shamed about it and felt regretted. Later, it was totally a new semester beginning. I first felt my college life had become much busier than before. And I also told myself I need to improve my English ability when I saw those transfer students can speak English fluently just like natives. And the GEPT test which the school required is approaching in 2008, I need to listen to the English tape more often and write more to let me pass the exam. Furthermore, my grandpa died suddenly. I was so grieved and could not accept the truth. When I attend his funeral, I was regret that I did not seize the moment to talk more with him. But I would no longer have the chance until I am old enough to go to heaven. Through the sad event, I started to know I must take more time to be with my family because I do not want to have regret anymore.

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After I being a tutor and earn some money, I found myself that I have so many things I want to buy. But I only earn six thousands dollar per month, and I will donate some money to the foundation. So the rest of money will become my pocket money, and I have to control myself I should not spend to much money on buying clothes. My goal is to save some money for myself so that I do not have to rely on my parents after I graduated from school. However, I found that it is very hard and difficult to get a job and I do not get a lot from it. Therefore, I start to perish that my dad can offer me the allowance to study, and I also have to cherish the time to be a student. My parents always say that the best time in their lives are being students. At the beginning, I do not believe them and consider it is not easy when student have to do a lot of homework and tests. Nevertheless, I know I have to seize any moment when I am a college student. Because I am out of pressure and do not have to worry about how much do I earn this month. I just have to study hard and master those foreign languages like English, Spanish and Japanese. I know I have to speak English fluently and have the good writing skill if I want to get a good job. To sum up, I should not waste any time on playing if I have to improve my English skill. So now I have to practice English more by listening to the English movie.

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After I face the music that I did not get a very good grade like before, I was a little bite shucked and depressed. Although I knew I did not pay my effort in the mid term exam, I still very surprised that the scores were much lower than I expected. Looked back of the past few weeks, I did not pay attention no matter on the Japanese class or Spanish class. Moreover, I did not take a note in the English literature class though I knew it was hard to understand. I found myself that I always could not pay attention in the classes; of course my scores would become worse. Therefore, I make a determination that I have to study much harder now. I will try my best to understand the point that my teachers give me and memorize the Japanese and Spanish words. And I will seize any moment to practice my English skill. Sometimes I will jealous those transformed students that their English abilities are really good. They always get good grades in the listening class and composition class. I know that they have paid a lot of efforts in English many years ago, and of course they will improve the foreign skill a lot. Hence, I hope myself to imitate their attitude of studying. I have to ask questions if I do not understand. I expect that I can pass the TOEFL in the next year or before I graduating from the colleges. I know the test is really difficult to pass, I must remind myself to concentrate on studying.

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I feel my sophomore college life is much busier than the freshman year. I have to write a lot of essays, report and prepare for many oral presentations. I almost have no leisure time to read my favorite novels or surf the internet. If a have any time to take a rest, I would go home and sleep for an hour so that I can have the energy to burn the midnight oil tonight. However, I always ate the delicious food, shopping with my friends and slept more than 12 hours one year ago. At that year, I usually felt boring and did not know what I should do. And I consider my college life will become much busier year by year. Nevertheless, I do not seize any moment to improve my English skill though I have a lot of time. On the contrary, I know my English ability does not go forward but backward. I lack the chance to listen English or talk more to my oral teacher. And I also do not go to the fifth floor of ten thousands building to practice English. Therefore, I am very regret that I do not use such facility which my school provides to improve my English skill. And now I am very worry that whether I can pass the GEPT test on April or not. I do not have confidence that I can write a fluent essay, or my listening score could pass 80. Because recently I test myself about listening but the result is not very well. I consider that I should use any free time to improve it until April or even the next two year, I hope myself that I can get a good score in TOEFL before I graduate from my college school.

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When I wrote the essay about the experience I had in the first semester of the college, I started to think of the time that I was trying to adapt to the new environment one year ago. At that time, I was gloomy almost everyday. And I also had a desire that suspended the courses and went back to Kaohsiung. But I finally decided to stay here because mom kept encouraging me. I am very glad I make the correct decision to stay here with my good friends. And I also joined a club, being a tutor or going out with friends. My college life had become much more colorful. However, time is always passing quickly. Seeing my school sisters were graduating, I began to think that I will also graduate from the school few years later. Hearing my classmates were talking about what they will do in the future, I started to feel frightened. Because I still do not sure what jobs were appropriate to me and do I have the interest on them. I have heard a lot of my friends made the determinations that they want to be a doctors, scientists or businessmen. But how about myself? Should I be an English teacher or work in the foreign company or being a translator? I am not quite sure. I have no enough ability to do it, because each of these jobs has to specialize in English. Hence, I determine to improve my English ability now in order to pass the TOEFL one year later. Maybe being a transfer student in the foreign country will broaden my horizons and also improve my English skill much quicker. I have to let myself versatile that I can find a good job easily in the future.

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Although most of the tests are ended in this week, I still feel that I am much busier than the past few days. In the weekend, I have to go camping with my school brother and sisters. And I not only have to take care of them but also have to prepare the food they need. I should wash a lot of vegetables for them and clean the dining table after they finished the meals. At the midnight, I must cook a green bean soup as their dessert. When most of them were going to sleep, my teammates and I have to wash their bowls and pots. When I finally can go to the bedroom and fell asleep, it is nearly AM 3:00. However, I have to get up at AM5:30 and start to prepare their breakfast, and it is also the beginning of a busy day. Hence, when I finally take a bus and go home, I have no energy to talk with my friends but fall asleep quickly on the bus. And I take a very long rest at home in order to recover my energy. Although it is very hard to do everything well and I can not sleep very well in these days, I consider all my efforts are worthy when I see many fantastic programs at night and see my school brothers and sisters are enjoy in the campaign. But on the contrary, when I perceive that I do not read the English literature and it will have the mid term exam on Friday, it lets me very nervous. Because I can really understand the old English history and the deep meaning in the stories, and I have to spend a very long time to read through the stories. Nevertheless, the English literature is more difficult than the norton anthology. I am not sure whether I can do as well as before or not.

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Recently when I watch the news, almost every channels are mentioned that the food , oil and our daily necessities’ price become much more higher than few months ago. And citizens are complaining that they don’t get more salaries but the have to pay more to the expenses. If I am still stay at home, I may not know what these people are talking about. However, I have to live alone in Taichung now, I gradually find that I have to pay much more than before in a month. When I walking into a restaurant, I find that each meal’s price increases five to ten dollar. And when I go to the gas station, the oil price is higher than before and it really scares me. One years ago, I only pay about eighty dollar when I add my motor full of oil. But now, I even have to pay more than one hundred dollars on my motor once a week. In order to save as much money as possible, I have to try everything which can save my expense. First of all, I tell my roommate that she can give me a ride to school everyday and I can share the oil price with her. This suggestion not only save our money but also can protect the environment. Secondly, I buy many foods from the supermarket and cook for myself since then. it only cost me thirty to forty dollar per meal, and I can control not to put so many salt and oil. Therefore, I feel I am much healthy than before. Although the economic is really awful now, and most of people can not have a good living standard, but if anyone can think of some saving tips like me, maybe they will not be so gloomy and depressed but become much happier.

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I get a job this week, which is teaches an elementary student English. Although I have no experience to teach a little child, I accept this job. It is not only I want to earn money but also I want to gain much more experience to teach a student no matter how old she is. Bye teaching my student English, I will also learn it beforehand and let my grammar ability improved. Besides, my student is a very cute girl, who is smart and friendly. Although she can not concentrate on what I am saying and always wants to find her sticker, she can answer me the correct questions immediately. And she likes to show me her cherish stickers and spares some of them to me. To encourage her has the interest learning English, I also buy some sticker for her as the award when she answer the correct questions. Getting this job, I can earn almost six thousands in a month. Therefore, I can buy whatever I want, like clothes, cosmetics and necklaces. I do not have to save my supply as much as possible in order to buy a purse. Hence, no matter I have to teach the little girl four to five times in a week, and I have to ride my motorcycle ten to fifteen minutes to her home, I will cherish the opportunity to be a tutor. Having a job, I will no longer rely on my parents to give me money but earn money by myself. And I believe I can make a balance between my job and my schoolwork. I will try my best to get a good grade just like what I get before. To sum up, I hope I can adapt to this new and busy life as soon as possible.

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Now I finally started to know why people always say their college lives are very busy and they are almost out of time. At first, I have to study the Spanish and Japanese, which I major in this semester. It is really hard to learn a new language, I have to adapt to its new grammar and vocabulary in the very short time. And that is really different from the situation I learn English before. When I was a little child, I could learn English by playing the games with my classmates. However, I have to memorize so many Spanish and Japanese vocabularies in a week and always have many tests and homework to do. Besides, I can not understand the middle ages history when I go to the English literature class. I can not separate the characteristic between Anglo- Saxon and Anglo-Norman. I think the English literature is more difficult than the Norton mythology, and now I have no interest in reading it just like before. Therefore, I am really worry about the mid-term exam is approaching and for fear that I will failed in those subject.
Secondly, I am busy for the freshmen’s campaign which will hold on November. I usually have a meeting twice a week, and everyone will discuss how to make the whole activities wonderfully. On the weekend, we will go to Miu-Lig and check the camping area again and again. Hence, I am always thinking of my freshman life, which is out of pressure and I have my leisure time to do whatever I want. But I will not regret what I decide, because I should not always stay at the dormitory and daydreaming like before, I should do some meaningful things to myself. .

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After I attended in my grandfather’s funeral on Monday, I quickly took a train and went back to Taichung. When I arrived home, my roommates told me that I have to write an essay, a journal, a transcription, and I also had a Japanese quiz, a listening quiz, a Spanish quiz and a grammar quiz in this weekend. Therefore, in order to finish my homework and prepare for the test, I have to burn the midnight oil and when I was in the school, I was exhausted and could not pay attention on the class. Furthermore, I have to borrow English literature from my classmates and write down the notes which I lost. Recently I usually think of my senior high school’s life is as busy as now. Maybe I am used to have a leisure life since I became a college student, now I have so many works to do let me became crazy. Besides, I have take part in the freshmen’s camping activities, I have to learn how to dance and perform it in front of those freshmen with my classmates. When I went back to Tainan, they have already practiced it several times, so I have to practice again and again with my roommate’s help at home. And I have to learn how to cook the green bean soup as our night snack when we go out to camp; however, I never cook it before and it is really hard to control how to cook it perfectly, so my teammates give me a really tough job to accomplish. By the way, the weather becomes cooler than in Tainan now, the temperature is low when I wake up in the morning. Although I want to go back to home to take my winter clothes, my homework does not finish. Hence, I have to wait until the mid-tern exam is finish. I hope I will not get a cold until I go home.

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This week is the most exhausted and busiest week that I have ever had. Since last Wednesday my father gave me a call and told me that my grandpa is dead. I felt my heart was broken and I cried all the night. Because I could not concentrate on my listening class, I decided go back to Tainan immediately. On the way home, although I was so depressed and agonized, I let myself face the music gradually. I knew my grandpa has become ill for a long time. However, I could not stand that he left me instantly because I still talked to him and took care of him in the hospital few weeks ago. I was familiar with my life that my grandpa always sits in the living room and waits me go home; I was familiar with my grandpa that he always smiles to me and cares my behavior. Hence, when I can not see him waits me at home now, I felt so lonely and cast down. I was regretted I did not do something and pay more concern about my grandpa, just like what he did for me. Therefore, mom told me what I can do now is read the Buddhism calligraphy as many times as possible. I hope my grandpa can live without illness and happily in the heaven. Furthermore, the most important thing is that I want to tell everyone we have to cherish the time which our family can live with us.

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After a long summer vacation, I find my English skill does not improve and I forget some vocabulary. I also can not write an essay as fluently as before. Therefore, I start to regret that I don’t practice English in my summer vacation but play and daydreaming all day. I am surprised that some of my courses become much harder when the semester started, especially the Japanese and the English literature. I find that learning a new language is really difficult. It means that I have to memorize its vocabulary and grammar just as I learn English when I was 10. Although it is hard to specialize a new language, I will try my best to study it in order to get a good job in the future. Furthermore, the English literature is so boring that I always take a nap in the class and I have no interest on it. Up to now, I have so many homework and tests that I even suspect why people usually say their college lives are out of tests and pressures and why my college life is so different from them. Besides, many of my classmates are having a part time job- to be a tutor. Hence, I also want to be a tutor not only to earn some money but also to gain my experience. However, it is hard to find an appropriate job for me. I search the internet and go to the tutor club in the school to find the job recently, but it is almost too far from the school or they pay less money to the tutor. My classmates tell me I have to wait my job patiently until there has an appropriate job. As a consequence, I have nothing to do at home now but just improve my English ability. I hope my writing and listening skill can become much better than last year.

reflection

At first, when I read through the essay, I feel the author is brutal and blindness. He shots the squirrel just for fun, and he does not have pity for the torture which the squirrel is suffered. On the contrary, he gives the squirrel another deadly shot. In his concept, if he can kill an animal successfully, he will not scare anymore when he goes to the war. Therefore, he conquers his fearfulness and takes another chance- to learn how to kill a chicken. When I read his article, I can almost imagine the scene because he describes it so vividly. Not only I but also my classmates are feel it is so disgusting and cruel. For example, the chicken can not bear the torture anymore and it will run away with out its head. This makes me think of does human has the right to deprive other creature’s lives. Should we kill those poor animals just for our dinner or they are so delicious. Hence, I am absolutely support everyone should quit eating meat and be a vegetarian. Furthermore, I am sneer at the author’s concept. Why he thinks kill a man is as easy as kill an animal? Killing men is committed a crime and even genocide. However, when I think of the era which writer lives, I consider everyone is easily affected by the period they live. As a consequence, the writer is so concentrate on learning how to kill.

The Philosophy Of My Life

To born in a Buddhist family, mother has taught me a lot of Buddhism’s philosophies since I was a little child. When I have difficulties on my relationship of friends and family, those philosophies are usually good solutions to help me solve my problems.
First of all, Mom says I have to be responsible for what I do. Therefore, mother hopes me to think twice before I making a decision. Consequently, no matter I success or fail, I have to take what I deserved in the future. Mom always uses some Buddhism’s fables to admonish me to pay attention on one thing. For example, I can not do my homework but think what TV program will be played in mind at the same time. Hence, I have tried hard to be concentrate on one thing and doing it as well as possible, though it is really difficult to fulfill.
Secondly, Mom tells me to be friendly to my relatives and friends. When they need help, I can not be indifferent but to give them my hand immediately; when I have a quarrel with my friends or family, I can not just think their disadvantages but try to find their advantages. Furthermore, I have to stand my enemies who mock at me and use a harmony way to solve the gap between us. After all, saying sorry first is the best way to disintegrate animosity quickly and easily. I know it is almost impossible for me to enforce what the Buddha says, but it will help me to decline many disasters. At last, Buddhism puts an emphasis on cherishing every creature in the world, even an ant. I know that everyone have no right to deprive other’s life, including those animals. Each life has its value in the earth, so I hope myself can be a completely vegetarian in the future.